after some time...

after some time... I finally make up my mind... she is the girl... and I really want to make her mine... nah... not gonna happen... I can't kick ass... haha... well hope shes doing well now... hai... if only she's just some simple gal... guess I'm too simple minded...

work work work... why can't I just be a peon and just do simple work... with no power comes no responsibility... I want no power!!!

Time flies...

hello everybody... actually I think there's nobody... I'm going to blog again :) yeah cause since no one reads I can blog whatever I want...

Firstly... my love life... I had two very very short relationships and many many dan liansss... so now one of my previous dan lian is back in my life and I don't know how I should react this time round... on one hand I think I'm falling in love with her again... on the other hand I'm telling myself not to do so... and today I'm kind of sad because she said this in her blog... "I keep meeting the wrong kind of guys... or those who actually have hearts of gold but simply no chemistry"... I mean I'm nice to her cause I like her la but i think this is gonna be like any other times I dan lian and I'm seriously abit sian liao... so what I intend to do is this... give her something that I've bought for her and tell her I think I like her... hahaha simple as that but simply sux... cause I'm gonna be rejected and yes I will have to move on with life again...

Then work is especially sucky now cause it's office politics politics politics... can't everyone just get a life and do their work and live life... we are going to die one day whether we like it or not so wth is with all these office politics man... the worse part is I'm part of it... seriously sucky...

Other than that it's all boring boring boring and boring life...

neglected... neglected...

guess I’m as neglected as my blog… well well so I shall at least not neglect my blog… and friends… hmm guess people can only be friends if they need each other in some place at some time… so even the best of friends can become strangers if they are together in the wrong place at the wrong time… have I changed??? I seriously wonder… changed for the worst??? hmm… I thought I always hold others in the first place as compared to myself… well I guess when I do try to bring myself before everyone I’ve changed for the worst… becoming more selfish… becoming more self centered… as much as I tried to satisfy everyone I end up satisfying no one… not even myself… or is it that I was a much better person then because I care much more for others… and now that I’ve decided to care a bit more for myself I end up not satisfying the needs of others… and I think there’s really no one in this world who understands me… kind of sad but true… how many people actually come to me when I need them… hmm maybe it’s my fault too… trying to put on a strong front… but that’s really because I don’t feel that bad… so when I’m told that I’m negatively affected by my emotional attachments… I thought I’m not… but maybe I am and I really don’t know… many things had happen… especially a major one… and I can’t say I’m not at all affected by it… but then when I say I’m not… am I lying to myself??? hmm… I guess maybe my mentality did change a lot within this year… that I learn to take things the easy way… and that people come to you when they do need something… and when they are done they just leave… way of life isn’t it… and am I really getting very unpc??? hmm hmm hmm… I guess so… but then again… this is me I must say so too bad…

CK's Theorem...

There’s always a time for everything… so now it’s time to blog :) yeah no time never crap around liao… I have a theory… with every little thing beneficial to mankind u up ur luck by a little… haha can’t say I’ve been doing lots of good things la… but this week there’s more output than input for me la… so my luck should rise right… haha then hor I did got a little pleasant surprise for one of my modules la… so I thought oh my that will use up a lot of my luck… haha then I got do some goods again la… in hope to compensate for the lost of my luck… but then I guess can’t add much within a short time… haha so I don’t do well for one of my module test… haha abit sad la cause all questions I do never come out… but then those I never do came out… in one sentence… I got no luck man… so I was grumbling abit when I’m going home la… thinking it’s damn hard to up luck but so easy to use luck la… haha then thinking that my luck is all gone for now… I pick up 10 bucks from my void deck… waited five minutes no one come claim… haha so just when I think my luck is down… I’m lucky enough to pick up 10 bucks… what does it say man what does it say… maybe one thing… life is never how u expect it to be… that’s life… haha so most of the disappointment gone with my little “reward” la… haha okie okie I’m not the best guy in the world to return it to the police station… and I’m the easiest guy to be contented with life… haha anyway more tests to come la so I guess my luck really used up for now liao la… but I will try my best to do good to society… try la… haha

Jie Lun 依然范特西... CK 依然 cmi...

Omg… Jie Lun 依然范特西特… haha got his latest mv here… 千里之外… okie I guess I really must start supporting him by buying his album liao… I mean how can a guy who must have the same chinese theme in every album manage to deliver it each time… haha ya ya I know I’m biased but who cares… and with 费玉清… haha okie I admit I think it’s quite gay too but nevermind la this century gay’s the in thing… haha and Mr 费's voice really very nice leh… maybe I’m old enough to appreciate him… so it’s a nice song… really hope the rest are good too… just maintain his standard then I’ll have another year of Jie Lun’s lyrics to memorize liao… haha… so that’s for the song… eyeshield 21 is ever controlling my mood with its chapters and anytime devilbats lose I’m gonna be damn sian too… so please no slam dunk ending k… just go on and win like every one expect the story to be… just don’t lose… well school life sux… even though I try to live it like how I did last sem I guess I can never go back to that me last sem liao… hai… but then again that’s life right… got to live it even if u don’t like it… so try la… now life’s really pretty sian with two of my bros very busy one with studies the other one with love… so no one to spend with me on sats and suns… got to live with that too… anymore things to complain… hmm… okie someone is still on my mind now and I can’t control it… everything around me seems to be able to connect with someone… yes I know I must let go but ya another cruel truth too… that it’s just not easy… ya and I’m not suppose to complain about it here cause inevitably someone might know and I don’t know how someone will think… sorry but bo bian la… hai… guess that’s the reason why I’m half gal (haha with regards to that I’ve my nice good friend to thank for letting me do a survey to know that I’m half guy and half gal… but it’s the thinking okie don’t think too much haha no gay in the making)… I don’t know on one hand I want attention but on the other I don’t want people to know too much then shower me with attention… irony of life… haha ya but I guess it’s for tonight only la… and maybe tomorrow and after that I should be fine again… bo bian too cause school starts again with the addition of tutorials… Oh ya totally into southpark now and I realize that my character fits the guy who Satan was in love with… Chris… haha for whoever understand u will understand why I laugh too… So when Mr Satan refers dear Chris as pussy I guess I’m one too… haha but mei ban fa I’m like that I guess… so no expectation from anyone who has an expectation on me… haha I guess I will just live to die in this world… Oh and I rent another hongkong drama liao… “hard to be a woman”’s the title…but then no la it’s for guys too… I weekly also got mention… quite nice… haha another of those cmi guys whom I never look upon but now I’ve hesitation being the ever nice guy in the show too… haha guess that’s so not realistic in real life… but I guess it’s quite nice a show to watch too bah… so for friends who want np np the necessary stuffs will be done and u can watch too :)… wow I manage to write so much… haha if only I can do so for my tutorials… but then again what’s the point… haha deliberately voicing my opinion in class… that’s so not me but yet I’m doing it for the sake of marks… okie add on I’ll live to be manipulated and die when useless in this world… haha… okie la finish my thoughts liao so anyone who read this now plz shower me with c and c cause I need it now… haha but then again won’t happen ;p… okie take care everyone… someone… me… oh oh of course got the lyrics la no worries haha if that’s what u are waiting for…

千里之外

詞：方文山 曲：周杰倫

屋簷如懸崖 風鈴如滄海 我等燕歸來

時間被安排 演一場意外 妳悄然走開

故事在城外 濃霧散不開 看不清對白

妳聽不出來 風聲不存在 是我在感慨

夢醒來 是誰在窗台 把結局打開

那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆

我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白

沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛

我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在

琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待

聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔

天在山之外 雨落花台 我兩鬢斑白

聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔

天在山之外 雨落花台 我等妳來

一身琉璃白 透明著塵埃 妳無瑕的愛

妳從雨中來 詩化了悲哀 我淋濕現在

芙蓉水面採 船行影猶在 妳卻不回來

被歲月覆蓋 妳說的花開 過去成空白

夢醒來 是誰在窗台 把結局打開

那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆

我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白

沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛

我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在

琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待

Hope The Day Before The Day After Tomorrow Never Comes...

And so it’s over… the long holiday… and tomorrow it’s back to studies whether we like it or not… and the rat race is on… well AAR for this holiday… learn that some things are just not easy to let go… but then again I guess time is definitely a reagent that will aid in doing so… so I will be fine… and I sure hope that someone is doing fine as well… school work will be one too… seeing the heavy work load ahead kinds of freaks me out a bit… but then again I don’t think that is too hard an obstacle to cross… after all I have leeway for my cap so it’s okay to drop a bit bah… haha… and I won’t be seeing my friends as usual as last sem but nevertheless keep in touch k… msn… sms… phone call… skype… these are all the means that can reach me… and I got PSP (okay I am showing off) haha so feel free to bug me for it okay… and to all the new friends that I will be meeting… hope we can get along well bah… just don’t back stab me can liao… cause never happen before and so don’t wish for it to happen… but there’s always a first time… haha… so can let me have the honor of doing so??? Anyway Jie Lun’s album on it’s way… so yeah!!! it better be good… okay okay FIR and Tao Ji Ji’s fans out there their albums are not bad as well… so farewell my holiday… been a great one with ups and downs… the upcoming dec one surely cannot match up to you… I guess I have till next year for another similar one liao… haha of course minus the downs and top up with ups la… I guess that will be all… take care everyone… someone… me… :)

Endless Story...

Well I realise that using songs to express my mood is better than using my lousy angmoh... haha somemore people can enjoy a nice song too... endless story is the song found in the nana movie... well it's a nice show dear friends out there... so enjoy before the holiday ends and it's back to studies...